I Am (2006)

i am spent
i am broken
i am ended
you have spoken

i am wrong
you are right
i am awake
you sleep tight

i am sorry
i am done
i am sad
i begun

i am lonely
i am lost
you forgot
i am the cost

What? (1992)

what is it supposed to mean?
is there something unseen?
what is it you’re not telling?
are you talking or are you yelling?

So Confusing (1986)

have i always been angry?
or just unhappy at the circumstances?
have my feelings engulfed my reality?
what is reality now?
i don’t feel mad, angry or sad
why do you tell me i am?
is this real?
am i real?
where do these feelings hide?
do they come out once?
twice?
never? always?
what does this mean? to me? to you?

is my existence profitable?

who’s happy now?
what does a relationship mean? work? understanding?
forgiveness?
i have no answers!
it ended too quickly!
where does caring start? stop?
who decides? you? me? no one? someone?
GOD?
are you my punishment for crime?
sins are great, but how much can i handle?
lose everything? a little? a lot? nothing?

so confusing this all is.

The Call (1989)

I’m calling you, my darling dear.
It’s that painful ringing in your ear.

You know it’s me from the hollow tone.
That sickening perpetual groan.

You ignore it with a gilded zest.
Thinking me the loathsome pest.

Right you are, then maybe not.
You’re the one who’s not so hot.

The calling ceases for today.
I can’t imagine a thing to say.

As Mine Is Yours (1995)

i’ve wanted to tell you for so long
just come right out and tell you
yet fear has left me numb.

i love you
i confess i know i shouldn’t
for my return has proven weak.

but hope drives me
hope that your fate is mine
as mine is yours.

we are too much the same to let this pass
this chance shall not return
seize this moment as if it were your last.

The Time We Kissed (1995)

standing hand in hand
looking into your eyes
feeling your soft warmth
as my nervousness dies

feeling my heart pound
as if it were the sea
knowing this moment so right
moving closer to me

our eyes see only each other
as i move to meet your kiss
the gentleness in your lips
my heart beats full of bliss

the kiss is soft and slow
somehow lasting forever
passion surpasses expectations
hoping this will end never…

So Long (1994)

ten months have come and gone
to me it’s not that long.
to you, it’s far beyond what is real.
waiting for your heart to steal.
how foolish have i been?
how long before i am in?
will you ever think of me when you’re alone
or are my chances completely blown?
i wish you had some thought
at least a chance i’ve got or not?

Drops (1988)

gently, i hear the drops fall
reminding me that time exist.
a subtle hint, that i perceive
as my pain continues to persist.
not a single moment of silence
do these drops bring.
not a moment of peace,
love, understanding or anything.
as they fall to the ground
a relentless never ending stream.
the same as my feelings
have fallen from the dream.
as the swelling storm
expels its rain.
the same has been done
only with pain.
the drops sound somewhat hollow
maybe empty or tame.
much like my heart
feels empty the same.
the drops continue to fall
never seeming to end.
but, all seems finished
with no more love to lend.

How Can Man (1987)

I often think of man’s ways
But sometimes my mind strays
To visit a single life such as my own
A complex person simply on loan.
But through my own display of smart
I think of others to pick apart.
Not to destroy, but to question why?
Why is it a kind man will lie?
Is it to gain ground on a friend?
Is it his heart that will never mend?
What makes a sane man kill?
Can he do that of his own free will?
I know somewhere man has gone wrong.
But can he change and for how long?
It seems to me very odd indeed
That man has become so much in need
Of a thoughtless, conscienceless, fiery lust.
And have no hope, nor in God do they trust.
How can man live a life such as this?
Sometimes I think these men will be the one’s God will miss.

Outrun (2005)

i have outrun my spirit.
i am so far ahead
i cannot hear it.
i cannot feel it or even know it.

i am a running mass of flesh.
no feelings of calm
or time to refresh.
i cannot stop this wheel from spinning.

i do not know the day or hour.
but come Lord
for this world is sour.
i want to go, my fuse is lit.

i am outrunning my soul
and it is leaving
my life's a little drowl.
this crazy life i should be winning.

What to Say (2005)

what to write
something untrite
maybe witty and smart
or something simply from the heart

what to say
about my day
maybe with some zeal
or just talk about how i really feel

what to do
find something new
something to catch your eye
maybe a thougt to make you cry

what to think
maybe i should drink
that might find some words
or it could cause me to spout out turds

Silent Scream (1994)

as i lay in languid state
spent of all that i am.
i wander through time
as if i could be anywhere.
i arrive to a place less confused
to a time that has been forgotten.
perplexed am i at life.
so much to account for
yet so little for worth.
have i wasted my time?
i am dying inside!
i am screaming to find some peace!