The Wind in the Trees (2005)

a step back in time
a place unrecognized
a memory faded
but a fresh wound

so long ago it seems
as I walk the lane
the wind in the trees
the only thing unchanged

i grew here some time ago
i joined as one here
and left here alone
a lifetime past

i returned to this place
all is new and different
yet the memories have stayed
a painful past that is part of me

Green Eyes (1995)

green eyes
blonde hair
smiles
laughter
humor
intensity
uniqueness
earrings
toughness
beauty
kindness
gullible
confusing
lovable
listener
thoughtful
perfect size
cute
charming
green eyes

Spinning (2005)

are you coming home soon?
you've been gone so long.
hey it's you
what are you doing here?
oh, of course, you live here
how long will you stay
leaving tomorrow
did you set the alarm?
have a nice trip
be safe,
love you,
bye.

A Lovely Mess (2005)

from outside the view is well
and all seems fine
yet all has turned to hell
in this fucking life of mine

i wonder is it the day
or just a state of mind
looking for the pay
or something i can't find

a mess i will admit
a depth i would not share
a moment to commit
to this tired nightmare

so full of rage
an anger uncontrolled
release me from this cage
it's dark lonely and cold

where does this hide
in the dark recess of my mind
a path i need not to abide
if the less traveled path i could find

i hate inside my head
the empty space i call me
i am not yet dead
but sometimes wish to be

Untitled (1996)

as i breathe in air i live
as i breathe in air i die
so much in life to choose
yet so little are the victories
i try to figure the way
as i travel the twisted path
i am mired in the blackness that has been offered
i touched the sky once only to fall
the end could come so quickly
as the path winds tightly around my neck
holding me hostage to what i despise
i try to feel my heart
but i feel only the pain inside
i am sick with hurt and i am lost
i hate to love you
you loved me because i was there
now i am not and you are not

Void (1988)

standing in the ally
staring at the car lights
feeling the rain upon my head
i could no longer touch my heart
i wanted to reach out to you
i felt only the cold rain
the loneliness i felt is beyond expression
i saw the rain reflect the light
reminding me of the glimmer in your eyes
thinking back into the past
when i didn’t feel so empty
so lost
so alone
so unloved

Alone (2005)

I walk tenderly over the jagged rocks
Knowing with every step I bleed
Hearing the voices ask may I guide you
But somehow wanting to struggle with the loss

Alone in my pain
No one worldly knowing my anguish
Or how I will get through this
As I meander beside their souls

The one I’ve chosen
Simply too lost to grab hold
Having no sense of my depth
Or how much I suffer

Alone in my pain
Seemingly alone in my world
Without the one to connect
If only the desire to know

I hide in my smile
To bind my sorrow somewhere unknown
The one I’ve chosen
Chooses not to dwell in the openness

Alone in my pain
I cry in the silence
Of my own existence
Without hope that anyone will hear

The stones dig deep
The blood runs vivid red
The voices to carry me diminish
As I no longer react with emotion

Alone in my pain
I bury all that holds me
And treats me kind
For all that is bitter

My hope lies not
In my chosen
For distant repetition
Is leading my jagged path

Alone in my pain
Alone to long for an end
Alone in understanding
Alone in being alone

I Love You Goodbye (1996)

we met in the strangest of places
unknown people with unknown faces.
two people meeting maybe by chance
or maybe it was fate’s wicked dance.
you and i connecting as one
sensing something had just begun.
time passed, turning day into night
turning something strange, into something so right

i looked in your eyes, seeing so much more
sensing feelings i hadn’t often felt before.
your kiss so passionate, soft and true
how i melted making love with you.
touching your skin, feeling your life flow
holding you tight and never letting go.
holding your hand as you called out my name
knowing that tone; i too felt the same.

we met in the strangest of places
unknown people with unknown faces.
now we part having known each other
happy that it wasn’t another.
i love you, goodbye, is how it will end
someday soon my heart will mend.
i love you was always there in my head
only i love you are the words that i never said.

The View of the Stranger (1986)

I saw him in his passing days,
a rather anguishing sight.
But in those waning hours,
I saw his mystic might.

Looking in his eyes so blue,
I saw his family and his wife.
His eyes so deeply drawn,
yet in them there was life.

Gleaming of days gone by,
remembering all that he had made.
I saw his family still,
in his eyes they had stayed.

So much this man had given,
to a world that never cared.
And, in those final hours,
so much he could have shared.

In his eyes, I saw his life,
and in his eyes I saw him cry.
He was not afraid of dying,
just the lingering thought of why.

I saw him bid farewell to life,
and all that he adored.
I looked into his eyes once more,
to know he was with the Lord.

Family in the House (2005)

the house is finally clean,
i must admit
which was no simple task,
i sorta threw a fit

now your spilling food and other
on the floor
maybe you
should go next door

this disease, you know,
to see it clean
takes too much effort
to keep it's sheen

why did i want a house
filled with so many
because, i would be so lonely
without any

so for now i will look away
from the mess
i'll try to be concerned
just a little less

for i am happy my family shared
in my living
and came to my new house
for thanksgiving

We Are As One (1985)

burning bodies touch together
seconds seem to take forever
sounds hardly hush the happy day
moving motion a systematic sway
hearts heard now are loud
two as one among the crowd
perfect passion screams past lips
cries let out from moving hips
the greatest grip the hardest hold
love is made not bought or sold
rejoice relax ecstasy came
seems nothing will be the same
holding hugs time is here
love lingers inside so very near
fingers feeling with loving touch
there is more it means so much
now nothing need be said
a willing weakness but never mislead

Hope Visits the Neighbors (1996)

i will love you forever
but have you never.

irony has its strange way
of making you want…
what you will never have…
crave what you can never touch.

simplicity leaves as torture sets in.
this knife of love cuts me into pieces,
as i fall to the floor alone.
hoping for that which is lost.

the phone interrupts the silence
as hope passes through my room
oh how close was i?
had only i stayed for the moment.

never shall i have you,
yet always i will love you.

How would I define intimacy? (2004)

A prideful glance at the women I love.
The feel of her hands touching my face for no reason.
The brushing together of our hands as we pass each other.
The look in her eyes as she kisses me full on the mouth, just because she wants to.
Moving the hair from her face as I watch her sleep.
Looking at her and knowing we have something that no one else can share.
Holding hands in a movie theater like a school child in love for the first time.
Making love to her just to feel the warmth of her body.
Inhaling the air as she passes; taking a deep breath as I softly kiss her neck.
Being inside the shower instead of out.
Doing nothing but laying next to her, silent and at peace.
Kissing like no one is watching and not caring if they are.
Holding her in my arms, to protect her and keep her from harm.
Her holding me because she needs me to protect her.
Sitting on the couch watching the dumbest movie ever.
Sharing the yard work, without worry it won’t get done.
Making a date to read books for free at Borders.
Standing side by side in the face of adversity (life).
Playful teasing and touching, leading to more, but sometime maybe not.
Feeling her hands touch me.
Being silent enough I can hear her heat beating as I rest my head on her.
Being for the moment and planning for the future.
Being led by desire for her, not by obligation.
Not letting the world consume my desire for the one I love.

How would I define intimacy?
Feeling her love for me more than knowing her love for me.

Kick the Dog (1986)

Wake up time comes too early, kick the dog.
You have a hangover from the night before, kick the dog.
Your life flies by on the hands of your favorite clock, go ahead kick the dog.
Plans never go as planned, kick the fucking dog.
You go to bed, no girl, no sex, kick the dog.
You kicked the dog all day, why does he still love you?

Why Do I Bother? (2004)

Why do I bother to light the fire?
You seemed to have lost all your desire.
I ask you so often I'm feeling numb.
Seems my need is becoming so dumb.

Why do I bother to fan the flame?
It's flickering light is rather tame.
I ask for your love and affection.
I wonder if I made the right selection?

Why do I bother to tend to the spark?
My need for you is almost dark.
I long for your touch without my plea.
But, it's my need for you that you fail to see.

Why do I bother to wave through the smoke?
So weighted and heavy that I only choke.
Because I love you and for no other reason.
I will light the fire in this or any other season.